That perfect person is someone who has changed your perception of what perfect is…
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Archive for December, 2012
Dramatis Impersonae
Posted: December 28, 2012 in PoetryTags: Despair, Drama, Loneliness, Love, Poem, Poetry, Sadness
Intro:
Personalities…Clashing…
People claim I’m so intense…
My emotions are all so fiery…
Maybe people don’t understand me…?
Or maybe they understand me better than I do myself…
Afterall if consensus is against all I’ve ever been…Against who I am…
Smooth skin…Smooth linens…
Smooth talk…Smooth calls…
All a mirage…
For once they see my emotional “flaws”…
People proceed to leave me alone…
As if my very own thoughts beget the inevitable pause…
Taken aback at how one can comprehend words so far…
From ones original thoughts…Taking everything to the heart…
Part of me wonders while gazing at the twinkling stars…
If just one piece of light could understand me…
As all is dark…No matter how far I see, all it seems to be is just me…
Just me…
Maybe I was born with this defect that now reflects in my unending sentences…
Rendering thoughts of grief…
While they breathe:
“He must be crazy…”
“Why is he so obsessed with every single person he meets…”
“Why must every single word be filled to the brim with so much damn emotion…”
“Why won’t he see…”
“We don’t think like he does at all…”
I can’t see…
It seems…My personality/persona can’t connect with anyone at all…
Each day I take a fall for trying so hard to fit in…
Only to be laughed off…
Or ridiculed away…
Or worse…
Ignored…
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“Wait for Me”
Nobody wants to be left behind…Includes me…Yet I seem to always feel the world turns too fast…So fast I can’t keep up with the ways of the days that seem to rotate in a way that blinds me…I need a symbol of peace…Someone to hold me..Tell me everything is ok..Breathe…
“Please don’t leave…”
“Am I being deceived….?”
Does someone really care for me…It takes time for me to believe…You may be the one for me…I apologize…If I realize too late…But please wait for me…
You may be what I need…A person who cares for me…Possibly one day even love me…Slow this world down…But it takes time for me to stop feeling so down…For so many years I was used and abused by all those around me…I had this need for somebody to accept me…Declared weird by my peers coupled with the harsh treatment I received made me a fragile being…I kept all this pain inside…You set it free…By those simple words…
“You’re ok”
Now I ask you please…please wait for me…
When one is harmed so much, it takes time to heal…It takes time for the feelings to surface…Removing the dead skin defined as worthlessness…I never realized just how thin this layer was…All I needed was someone to trust..Help lift me up…Shed the pain and regrow the love…
“You’re the one”
You protect me…I protect you…
Through all the flows of life…We’ll be by each others side…For so many years I tried to bury the lie…
That I was just fine…
I was missing an important piece of my life…
That was you…you complete me…I hope to do the same…
Wait for me…
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You are a star….
Let the other lights dye dark…
Show your shine…
Don’t let the other lights parse through your life…In their attempts to break you down from your goals…
You by yourself are whole…Remain bold…
Always keep your will stowed by your heart..
Taking risks and hits because of who you are…
Wondering why your spark seems so small…
Each thought that you recall is accompanied by a silent bawl…?
Fallacy in mind and thought…!
You are more than who or what you think you are…
You are your own star…
Life need not be lived large…
Only matters of the heart should take part in making your mark upon this world of Art…
Whether it’s through small deeds or large feats of glory…
Understand that you are a star of your own story…
Don’t give in to the pressures of “fitting” in…
Let the lights around you dim…
Show your shine through those darkest nights….
You are that star in your mind…And in Life…
You are a star…
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Silent Scholar 