A dream…
For you to understand…
Just how much I care…
Language…
The choice of words…
Choice of verbs and phrases…
Makes for this way I feel..
That seems so odd…
How can one feel so strong…
Without the time needed to bond…
As if one touch releases all…
Perhaps there’s a cause…
Deep down inside…
I’ve felt lost…
Yet in you I see all the signs…
See you as the guide…
For my flows…
Knee deep in the throes…
Of being no more…
Yet the mere showing of you…
Apologies for being me…
But if there is only one person who could see…
The beauty in being me???
Or have I become so deluded…
As you remain quiet…
Uneasy…
Leaving me to wonder…
What have I shared…
That has lead to this blank stare…
Don’t you love me???
What have I done…
This glimpse of shared love…
Broken by my own trust…
Trust in you seeing me as I am…
And not the bits & pieces…
You fell for in the past…
Reduced to a pile of words…
Rummaging through what works…
And what tingles the nerves…
Pray back to when I could say no wrong…
While knowing what you’ll be saying now…
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We won’t work out…
All because of me..???
My combined pride and shame…
In being who I am…
Will let me take all the blame…
Yet I feel it’s your loss too…
Yet I feel you deserve no pain…
Only wish you wonder why…
We can’t be…
My intensity???
Burns all around me…
Silent Scholar 