Current inspiration…
Be who you are…
And no more…
For a life spent trying to please…
Too often leads to misery…
If he or she won’t let you be…
And treats you as some small piece of sweet…
As that taste leaves so quickly…
And leaves behind pain…
You will never feel at ease…
Trying to find peace…
In a being such as he/she…
Darling don’t cry…
Aint worth it…
One day…
Just one day…
One place…
Where we could be together again…
Where past
Could press my “fuzz” upon your smooth skin..
And Wish the woes away…
And restate with grace…
How much in love we are…
On this one day…
For one day…
All has been right…
But who am I to believe…?
To wish…
For what will never be…
For what only I’ve seen..
For this me isn’t me…
Real me can’t appease…
Real me must believe…
That being me is enough for you and me to be…
I pray…
All praise is to The Supreme…
To bring forth my selfish dreams…
You to be with me…
Even if you don’t wish us to be…
Heaven must be…
Heaven tells me…
My heaven…?
Intro: Ramblings of someone deeply in love.
If she only knew…
What should
Wait let me restart…
You see baby…
No scratch that…
See Miss…sess
My misses…
Kisses…
Oh that’s so uncool…
Read this…
Wait she…
Wait…
—
Let me proclaim…
Never ever before…
Have I ever felt so in love…
Never ever thought I’d utter the very
Thoughts that tug of war with my other parts…
When the two of us touch…
In this warmth…
Release this slowly built up love…
And grow up…
Heh…
Grownups…
Doing the grownup things…
Part of being full fledged beings…
Even the alien in me sees…
We need more…
Hence why each day I tell you…
How much I love you…
A dream…
For you to understand…
Just how much I care…
Language…
The choice of words…
Choice of verbs and phrases…
Makes for this way I feel..
That seems so odd…
How can one feel so strong…
Without the time needed to bond…
As if one touch releases all…
Perhaps there’s a cause…
Deep down inside…
I’ve felt lost…
Yet in you I see all the signs…
See you as the guide…
For my flows…
Knee deep in the throes…
Of being no more…
Yet the mere showing of you…
Apologies for being me…
But if there is only one person who could see…
The beauty in being me???
Or have I become so deluded…
As you remain quiet…
Uneasy…
Leaving me to wonder…
What have I shared…
That has lead to this blank stare…
Don’t you love me???
What have I done…
This glimpse of shared love…
Broken by my own trust…
Trust in you seeing me as I am…
And not the bits & pieces…
You fell for in the past…
Reduced to a pile of words…
Rummaging through what works…
And what tingles the nerves…
Pray back to when I could say no wrong…
While knowing what you’ll be saying now…
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We won’t work out…
All because of me..???
My combined pride and shame…
In being who I am…
Will let me take all the blame…
Yet I feel it’s your loss too…
Yet I feel you deserve no pain…
Only wish you wonder why…
We can’t be…
My intensity???
Burns all around me…
We should all dream….
My love…
My dreams…
Soothing herbal scents…
Mixed with sweet mind mending essences…
Can’t comprehend these scented blessings…
Can’t help but trespass passed this messing…
Messages claim we cannot be this way…
Shunned away by the hear and dear say..
“You don’t belong with him”
Unwanted Ms. and Mr. mix…
“Nix this miss”
“True love is more than just this”
“Ms. Sweetness…You deserve sweeter than sin.”
The allure of love has cost us so much…
Loss of all those around and above…
For we feel faith has forsaken us…
As is what was once so sweet has soured…
Where lovers meet to be we now quarrel…
Over the little stuff…
Stuck in the rut of never ending…
Buss…
Hands hold onto trust…
As I gaze into your eyes…
I see the worries…
The strife…
My love…
Your sweetness is enough…
Meeta meri…
Merry Marry…
Love crosses all barriers…
Brought on by societies…
Jaan meri…
Rays of hope…
The essence of hope…
The essence of solace…
Dare I say…
The warmth that emanates…
From your embrace…
Help me feel safe…
Shed my shell…
And let loose all I’ve felt…
Help spell out love….
In my own soft way…
From this warm night…
Into the bright days…
Forever maintained…
By shared love…
Shared faith…
Intro: An older one that still stays relevant to this day.
Waking up stressed…All my pain starts to crest…So much so I can’t address it anymore…I want to let it overflow…Drown my soul…
But my prose refuses to let me fall so low…
Trembling…Writing that fatal line…Instead, instills the will in me to fight…No matter how hard the struggle…I refuse to buckle…This will we all must have…Some have so little…For them we have to watch over…
Refuse to let them give up…No matter how rough or tough or stuck…or out of luck…Never ever give up…No matter how down you are…No matter how far you got to go…Keep the your will stowed…bound to your soul…Show that you can take the abuses and emerge stronger…Survive…Survive…
I’m no stranger to depression…Seems each night I engage in a solo session of wondering whether I should just give up…? Looking up and down, and around for some inspiration…
I’m always mired in misery…Maybe I should act out my Suicide Diaries…My twisted belief tells me that the world would be a better place with one less face defined as me…Those types of thoughts continue to plague me…But I know they products of pain that will one day go away…I have this unbreakable faith that guides me through the rain till it shines…No matter how many binds I’m bound in…I refuse to lose…I choose to win in the end…
The will to survive through all the trials in life is built up over time…Each day I strive to live the best way I can…So no matter how bad the day is, I take solace in knowing I gave it my all…I refuse to let myself fall victim to this harsh system of putdowns, ignored and left-behinds…Each line a write will continue to emphasize living life…through all storms that threaten to knock me and you off course…Stay strong…We’ll all reach that calm shore…
Intro: This song is a spiritual successor to Sweet Echo (Link below)
The winds still carry the story…
Sweet Echo II {No More}
Remember…
Way back when…
You and me…
Never missed a beat…
Now I skip back each chance…
Just to see if she’s there…
Waiting for me…
Instead the winds greet me…
With the warm embrace of past memories…
But just as fate frees me…
Winds leave ever so swiftly…
Leaving this soul in pain…
Wondering when…
That chamber of echos…
Feels like your voice again…
[Missing notes…
Missing quotes..
Missing most…
Your sweet echo…]
Memories of you…
Form part of who I am…
If past tense…
Could be present once again…
But fate had other plans…
Faith lead me to believe in you and me…
Winds reminded me of your sweet embrace…
As if today’s pains began to dissipate
Into a cloud borne from all the self hate…
That had taken peace away from me…
Is it wrong to remember what once was?
So fleeting the moment…
But still all us…
All love…
[Missing notes…
Missing quotes..
Missing most…
Your sweet echo…]
Silent Scholar 