Posts Tagged ‘Suicide’

Intro:
This is a reimagining of a previous writing: https://silentscholar.com/2014/10/26/choose-life-i/
This time with just one voice as often there is only one.
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As I Balance the Scales…
Between Faith and Fate…
Which carries more weight…
At this time and place…
Trace back to this one face…

On my knees with a Holy Book in hand…
Wondering which verse and path…
Leads to a promised land…
But seems fate has other plans…
As my soul only knows days…
Filled with pain that dare me to break…
Beg and ask…
Where are you!?

Page by page I read…
Of miracles witnessed by Holy beings…
Whom I believe…
Each word leads me to dream…
Yet ends in another day breathing…
For no damn reason..!

Faith decreasing ever so…
So close to closing this book…
That took all my pain prayers…
Perhaps in vain…
As there is something strange…
When I turn each page…
Words will me to stay…
“Ar-Rahman”…
Blessed in so many ways…
Believe in better days…

Don’t let your life’s light dim…
Embrace it…
Keep it warm and shining for all times..
Recite line after line of tears & trials…
Even when no voice responds…
You have your own life’s story to hold onto…
The story of…
Finding my place…
Finding fate…
Through faith…

Choose Life I

Posted: October 26, 2014 in Poetry
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Completed the song (draft) from prior: https://silentscholar.com/2013/04/25/choose-life-draft/
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Intro: Suicide…Call it what it is…It need not be the actual action to take ones life…Giving up on life is
just as sad…There are those who say one has to right to end ones own life. In a way I agree with them…But
that does not mean I see it as the right thing to do…No one should give up…Please don’t give up…Choose

Life…

I understand the meaning of strife…
But only through the lens of this life…
For each individual’s soul’s strife is so unique…
For that reason alone I refuse to be your judge or jury…
Only a fellow human being….
Begging you…
Please…
We breathe, bleed, and believe so similarly…
Living individual soliloquies…

But often with audiences of none…
Or just One (Creator)…But perhaps being just us can be enough…
Truth is I don’t have the answers…
Only this protracted banter…
With one goal alone…
To not let you go…
Even if you’ve lost all hope…
Even if you’ve locked all doors…
Just know I’ll be outside braving this “cold”…

Talk to me…Please talk to us…Or just someone…
Perhaps yourself…
I often spend nights pacing footsteps…
“Comforted” by my own distress…
Mind telling me life’s messed…
“Take those next steps…”

I swear I would…
Knowing that full truth I could…
But faith holds me back…
If only I can harness that essence and pass…
But I can’t…
I can’t…
You must harness it yourself…
But until then I’m here to help…
Will never let you go…

Intro: This is rather dark…

My life has been nothing but a waste…
I’m a waste of skin…

Why couldn’t I have been still born…?
Or smothered at the first sound of life…
Gasping for air till I turned pale and white…
Or buried alive…Nobody caring for my cries as I slowly die…
But instead I’m living this worthless life!

Enslaved to all these slights that are breaking me down…
Yet the ground stays whole…Won’t let me enter its dark folds…
I beg…I beg…Let death be only thing I have to face…
Let “this” waste of a human being be no more…
Let me die…

Intro: Suicide…Call it what it is…It need not be the actual action to take ones life…Giving up on life can be just as sad…There are those who say one has to right to end ones own life. In a way I agree with that idea…But that does not mean I see it as the right thing to do…

I understand the meaning of strife…But only through lens of my life…
For each indivdual’s soul’s strife is so unique…
For that reason alone I refuse to be a judge or jury…
Only a fellow human being….
Begging you…
Please…
We breathe, bleed, and believe so similarly…
Living individual soliloquies…
But often with audiences of none…
Or just One…Perhaps being just us can be enough…?